anti-y0u

eh

Fri, 28 May 2004 15:21:19 GMT

well, i got my cap and gown. and i bought a yearbook this morning. as far as i know, i'm all set to leave high school.

last night sarah and i went to mayfair for reggae night in the pouring rain. it was so fun!! there was a woman who had this beautiful voice and she was a third black, a third blackfoot, and a third cherokee. she sang this reggae song all in cherokee and it was just wonderful. the rain felt so good and peaceful.. all the hippie-stoners were mud-dancing like they were at woodstock er something. actually, pridefest last year was more like woodstock... MUDDY! but hopefully itll be drier this year.

i really should be studying for my government final, since mrs. paulus doesnt understand the concept of applied class and apparently the final is pretty hard.

teehee, i just found that the Taurus (i'm a taurus) Constellation is 420 light years away. hahah.. 420. i'm such a stoner >.<

anyway.. as i was saying. eh, i dont want to talk about my final anymore. im tired. i jsut want to hang out in the library. i wont start studying for the final til sunday. monday we have off and the final is wednesday, so i think i have enough time to know enough to bullshit my way through.

my toe hurts

Tue, 25 May 2004 15:21:50 GMT

today is one of those days where all i want to do is stay in bed, in my 50 degree air-conditioned cubbyhole. friday is my last full day of school. monday, we have off of school, and tuesday i'm only here til 1:20. yaaaaay.

and now i'm hungry. this gum lost its flavor. :\

this computer sucks. it has a mind of its own.
*apologizes to computer* im sorry i said you suck. you dont suck. you're a very nice computer.

erik is reading my entry. yaaaay.

anyhoo, i had the resident lesbian substitute teacher today for english. she's nice. she was talking about her friend who won some golf tournament and bla bla bla... GRR STUPID COMPUTER.

im so bored :\

the pope and gay marriage

Tue, 18 May 2004 15:24:11 GMT

im so happy now that Massachusetts has legalized gay MARRIAGE. yaaaay! hopefully it will get the ball rolling and soon all the states will have marriage open to everyone. i was reading some stupid message board and this guy was all like, "marriage is not a right, it is a privilege" what... like you have to work in order to get it? how does one become privileged to be married? that doesnt make any sense. marriage is a human right. if someone wants to spend their life with someone in the LEGAL bonds of matrimony, so be it. just fucking let them. who does it affect other than them? no one!!

i want to be married someday. it doesnt matter though.... i'm going to canada where its legal right now.

anyway its the end of the period, and i have to go to first lunch soon.

i just wanted to comment on the pope.
he's 84 today. big fucking deal.
He's old. And senile.

grrrr...
DAMN CATHOLICS!!!!!

ugh...

Tue, 18 May 2004 15:06:46 GMT

Mrs. Paulus should NOT be a teacher. she is so stupid, and has no idea what the meaning of "applied" class means. "applied" does not mean, assign 2 major projects in one marking period, and have only 2 weeks to do each, AND have them due 2 days apart from eachother, THEN a major extra credit project due the last monday of the fucking school year.

i am so incredibly glad government is not a full year class. i dont think i could take much more of that bitch. she needs to pull her panties out of her cunt, because her cameltoe is making her crabbier than i am when im out of weed. jesus christ, i hate that woman. i am not going to be nice to her for the next 10 days. i generally dont like sucking up to teachers, and i thought, hey maybe if i suck up to her, she'll give me better grades. but no. the bitch isnt being nice to me, so fuck her. i wont be nice to her. goddamnit...

im so angry today. and now, katelynn is gonna be arrested for threatening jess's life. she's sitting up in english class, and mr.d just witnessed her saying "i'm gonna kill her". smart move, kate. kate's a good friend of mine, and even though i dont like jess all that much, that was a real stupid thing to say.
i absolutely cannot wait to get the fuck out of high school. i hate high school politics, i hate high school teachers... ESPECIALLY teachers... i mean, i have the ones i like, but over the years, there have been a few that i wish didnt exist at the school.... like nunamaker, hankee, paulus, waechli, wenzel... they have been the teachers i've hated the most. seriously, being in their classes made me want to either hurt myself or something else.  UGGGHH!H!!!!!!  stupid cunt.

i hate high school. i really hate it. ksdaflkjdsfljk;sfd;ljkfdas..   fuckin' assholes. RAAARRRR!~!!!!

OMFG!! TARA IS A STUPID BITCH!!!
if they're gonna be talking about something, at least be fucking intelligent about it, instead of PROVING they're idiots. its a hindu temple, not islamic, or buddhist. FUCKING HINDU. you dont call a roman catholic church a synagogue, do you?   its a HINDU TEMPLE. i hate being more intelligent than everyone around me. i'm not saying i'd rather be stupid like them... fuck no. if i were like them, i think i'd kill myself. and all she's saying about it is, "i got high by there". whoopdeefucking doo. you're a stupid blonde whore. who the hell cares?

AND THERE IS NO FUCKING CURE FOR AIDS. no wonder this is a sped room. they're all fucking idiots!!! not like, mentally retarded people where they dont know any better.... they're the people that think they know everything but yet they are SO STUPID I CANT STAND IT!!!

i want to go home. i think i seriously need to go home. if i dont, i think im gonna break something. i wanted to throw my desk at mrs. paulus today, and now i have this strong urge just to push the monitor on the floor and smash it over matt hansen's head. goddamn mongol. he is a fucking retard. AND DONT FUCKING TALK WHEN YOU'RE YAWNING!!! it just makes you sound more retarded than you really are.

what the fuck am i doing here? the only reason why im in this room is so i can go on the computer. i should just go to the library from now on. its quiet, im not surrounded by freakin' idiots....
i cant stand this place. LET ME OUT OF HERE!!!!

only like, 10 more school days left. its about time. ive hated this place since the day i've walked the halls but it felt like forever til now.

OH GOD GET ME OUT OF HERE!@!!!! :(

every little thing...

Thu, 13 May 2004 19:48:23 GMT

Though I've tried before to tell her
Of the feelings I have for her in my heart
Every time that I come near her
I just lose my nerve
As I've done from the start

Every little thing she does is magic
Everything she do just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

Do I have to tell the story
Of a thousand rainy days since we first met
It's a big enough umbrella
But it's always me that ends up getting wet

Every little thing she does is magic
Everything she do just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

I resolve to call her up a thousand times a day
And ask her if she'll marry me in some old fashioned way
But my silent fears have gripped me
Long before I reach the phone
Long before my tongue has tripped me
Must I always be alone?

Every little thing she does is magic
Everything she do just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

skool dayz

Thu, 13 May 2004 15:26:31 GMT

im here in school now, since i cant access livejournal from the school. 12 days of school left, one final, and then a week later i'll be graduated!! :D yay!

ive noticed i talk about krisdin alot. but i dont know what to... uh, call her, i guess is the right term... when people ask who she is, well she's not really a "friend" cos i dont know her all that much, but i seriously like her alot... she's more than just "a girl i know".... i dont know? she's coming back to PA this summer... she wrote in her livejournal "let's hope i find a nice girlfriend this summer". let's hope she'll want to go out with me ^_^ i dunno. i like her alot, though... :) she makes me smile.
it might seem a little obsessive, since we never really hung out er anything... i just know about her of what i've seen on her lj, or talked to her online. i almost feel intimidated when i talk to her, though.. like i dont know what to say. i get shy and clam up. i have to get over that. my mom gets confused when i talk about her, cos i also talk about kristen. i have to emphasize the "DIN" and the "TEN" when i talk about either one. like, "i was talking to krisDIN online" bla bla bla, or "krisTEN told me..."

hahahah im retarded.
the period is gonna change soon.

i should write in this more often :)

so anyway...

Thu, 14 Aug 2003 03:58:51 GMT

i dont think i write in xanga in one day as much as i have today. then again, i've never had withdrawl as bad as today. its pathetic how much i really rely on it... its my therapy, man.. cut me some friggan slack.

just got back from Papa's.. had a chicken "ceaser" salad.. nothing ceaser about it, though. it had chicken, lettuce, crutons, tomatos, and OIL N VINEGAR dressing. gawd.. i swear that dirty cook is defective.. he needs to get some recipes or something.

uhh.. yeah, so what now? i duno what to talk about now. i think i'll go away.

sounds like a plan. bye.

im not done yet

Wed, 13 Aug 2003 22:58:53 GMT

a few people said that xanga is workin again, and Jen Jen actually got to read the one dude's entry.. but its not workin for me, so i'm stickin w/ this till its working fully.

i'm a journal junkie. what can i say?

i've been without my beloved for a few days, and i need SOME sort of fix, might as well be this doo-hickey. once xanga is back up, i'm leavin. unless i really get the hang of it, then maybe i'll switch... which i doubt, but hey.. its a possibility.

sumtimes i wish ppl would understand that i'm not ignoring them on AIM when i'm on my celly!!! they all IM me at once, and i can never respond to anyone without bein interrupted, and they all think i'm ignoring them. roar.. but i love AIM on my phone :D its so.. i dunno.. i just love being online all the time, and waking up to like 7 IMs.

so right now, i'm eating scalloped potatoes and a salmon salad sandwich. yummmm...

YAY j*teen is here, so i gotta go..

love.

this is just a test..

Wed, 13 Aug 2003 22:38:21 GMT

ok, well.. this is my first entry... i dont know if i'll be keeping it.. im hoping xanga comes back online soon.

and my internet is fucked up, so i cant see what it looks like, really... i hope it looks good.

anyway, i'm happy otherwise. got to see krisdin yesterday :D

peaceout, bitches.